Meeting at work...

Today I sat through a meeting in which the superintendent of the school I work at (essentially my boss) literally got up and had a pitty party for her...I quote "Stop talking while I am talking, I have earned the right the speak".  NO...you are wrong...for the past 9 months I have been in my classroom, up and down hallways, at football, basketball, and softball games, school dances, movies in the gym and, oh yea, interacting with students...YOU HAVE NOT, rather you have locked yourself in your office, you have made decisions that make you look good but make my job harder.  My favorite quote from the meeting was that she wants to put students first...well evidently that is first after your pay check, my reputation, and my sleep and good morals. Let me make it clear, I do as I am told; wear dress pants and heals daily, mind my p's & q's, spend hours lesson planning for 52 minutes of madness, read silly books because they are required, and sit quietly in meetings because the wrong words would mean my job but tonight I am frustrated with the system!


Let me tell you something to start addressing in our classrooms, the fact that our education system in America is broken, because we don't have our priorities in order - unions, power and indoctrination are put first - hard-working students, teachers and parents an afterthought.  I just want the people to understand...we need moral teachers, we need to hire those who love others around them, are not self seeking but God seeking...WE NEED TO STOP LOOKING AT EDUCATION AS A PROBLEM BUT A SOLUTION...

...more thoughts to follow later!

What today will bring...

Another new church today...another new group of people...another set of questions to conquer...scary but exciting.  What makes times like this most difficult is the simple fact that I will sit alone physically at church and get the inevitably hard question to answer what brings you here or are you looking for a singles small group.  What brings me here? The Truth...I am looking for a church with truth, with love and grace and scripture and honest Jesus loving people...Am I looking for a small group...ha ha well since I live a half hour away from church it becomes somewhat difficult to always just pack up and go to a small group during then week for numerous reasons, do you really want me to go through that....

Questions that churches should be asking...do you want to come to lunch, could you come over for dinner, my family is going to a chiefs game - you want to join?  Living through this period of my life has brought new perspective...I am looking for friendship again, I am looking for connections, I am looking for the idea of family, someone to pick up the phone and want to call me...(don't get all poor Rachel on me now, I really just want to say it and then move on)...I crave someone wanting to pick up the phone and want to call me! 

And while I am sending this out into the abyss - still questions I would like to consider, to ponder and to offer to whatever church I become active in...

To to conclude today's random ideas of my mind I am trying out yet another church, sitting alone in the pew, enjoying the sermon but desiring someone to discuss with later, which brings me to the purpose of this blog…

…a place to vent, discuss, confess, and generally have an open ended discussion with the abyss…

Sure, it would be considered a prayer of sorts, however feel free to comment, suggest, or just read for understanding…but promise me this, as you read…be encouraged…remind yourself that indeed God did create a perfect plan for everyone, in His time and be calmed in the grace that He provided for us through His son Jesus Christ, who died so that we may live free from the pains of this world…just sit and contemplate the reality of this for while…